First Week and wanting to talk to Derrick

I know that life is wonderful and all of that, but Derrick was my husband for ten years. I just want to talk to him and make certain that he isn't dead.

I know that I am the one that did the breaking up, but that doesn't mean that I am the worst person on the planet and don't want his friendship.

At the same time, my husband would kill me if he thought that I wanted any kind of contact.

I don't think that it is fair that love is supposed to go away without a second thought.